At the moment, nothing in my life feels right. Not my career path, my relationships, my location/living situation. My life doesn’t feel like my own, it doesn’t resemble who I am. I daydream often of what my life should be but I have only taken baby steps this far.
At this stage in my life, I feel somewhat immobilized. I feel stifled by my location and my comfort (which is ironically uncomfortable). I feel that I need change in order to feel inspired, to be more active. I feel like I’m just killing time all the time. That everything is a distraction of sorts. I feel like I’m in a floating state, a purely physical state of existence. I haven’t put my heart and soul into anything. And I feel like I haven’t made anything of myself and I won’t make anything of myself until I move out of Florida. I want to start over, I need a clean slate, a fresh canvas. I want to recreate myself. That’s not say that I don’t love my family and my friends, but these aren’t things I can dedicate my life to.
I feel at this point my life it’s time to find myself. I’ve yet to find my true passion. I need something put my heart into. I know that I must take myself out of my comfort zone and expose myself to new things, new experiences, and new people.
To sum it up, I feel that we are meant to dedicate our lives to our passions and our gifts, and I haven’t begun to do so because I’ve yet to find out what these things are. I’ve been wandering and I’m just starting to find a sense of direction, but that direction is pointing on every point on the map.
Well, anyways, enough of this for now.
